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The feeble ashes, and their feeble breath
Blew for a little life, and made a flame
Which was a mockery; then they lifted up
Their eyes as it grew lighter, and beheld
Each other’s aspects—saw, and shrieked, and died—
Even of their mutual hideousness they died,
Unknowing who he was upon whose brow
Famine had written Fiend. The World was void…
Byron “Darkness” ll. 62-9

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Aug. 11th, 2009 @ 05:27 pm Dulles is the dullest
Current Location: Dulles Airport, Virginia
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Sisco - "Enter the dragon"
Just thought I'd let everyone know how things are going (and because i'm bored with reading for 5 hrs straight...). Kira and I tried to fly out on our great adventure last night; however, lighting over the airport prevented our plane from leaving on time (it was delayed until 9:30). We missed our connecting flight and were forced to rent a room in Dulles. Long story short, we woke up the next morning and have been sitting in the Dulles airport for a few hours.

Our new plane leaves at the old time

But we can't get through security or go to the gate until we receive our boarding pass from Qatar air. The Qatar Air kiosk doesn't open till 7:00...

...so we're sitting in chairs by the terminal waiting to get the board pass. Fun, huh? Thankfully, I finally got the computer to connect to a wifi hotspot. Bugger.

So, I'll try and get online as soon as I can in Qatar. No promises, but it should be shortly after we land and get acquainted with our house (I hope).

We'll see you guys shortly..
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Anarchy
Mar. 29th, 2009 @ 04:40 pm I should have left ya without a dope beat to step ta...
Current Location: McMurray, PA
Current Mood: content
Current Music: Fort Minor - Where'd You Go
Well, it's been awhile since I've posted. Things have been slow; so, I don't really have much to say. As many of you know, we signed our contract.

I finished a new short story, got some inspiration for another..

and, well, now we're in our last month of class ...

The farm is gearing up for the beginning of summer. I've had some good times with friends from school coming in.

That's about it.
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Mar. 16th, 2009 @ 11:04 pm a good day...
Current Location: McMurray, PA
Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Squeeze - Up the Junction
so, I typed 3 solid pages of prose today...good, interesting and introspective prose.

It's been awhile...and i'm glad that I've gotten something typed.

something good and worth working on...
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Anarchy
Feb. 5th, 2009 @ 02:10 pm done...
Current Location: WUWC
Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: She Wants Revenge - "Replacement"
God, I finally finished it. It's done. "Apology of the Sword" is finally, and painfully, finished. I have to read back through it and manage some alterations (not to mention awful typos) and then I'll post it...
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Anarchy
Feb. 3rd, 2009 @ 06:31 pm burned...
Current Location: McMurray, PA
Current Mood: drained
Current Music: Mozart- Requiem Mass
For the love of all that is holy!

Writing has been driving me insane recently. I just cannot seem to muster the energy to finish my story... It's been frustrating and, worse, depressing. Another rejection letter has sent me into a pointless self-pitying. I've been struggling to finish my most recent story "The Apology of the Sword"...

A feeling of rote production has overwhelmed me. My writing, whether it be poetry or prose, comes across as recycled...as if i'm pulling from the same stagnant pool. Part of me blames the rather redundant nature of my life...others, the lack of overall inspiration, and finally a sense of pointless artistic production that threatens to halt my energy all together. I struggle to feel a sense of purpose in my writing, perhaps fueled by a sense of moot worth.

ugh.

I've been reading the new collection of Robert E. Howard horror stories...

The rest has been pretty standard. I've continued my mechanical work at the farm, including servicing several trucks, draining a diesel truck tank (because someone put untaxed fuel in it)...and other rather standard mechanical procedures.


I suppose that's about all exciting that's been going on.
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Jan. 25th, 2009 @ 08:01 pm Matheson talks about I am Legend
Current Location: McMurray, PA
Current Mood: crappy
Current Music: Philip Glass - Trust
I only got to read about half of this, but It's Richard Matheson talking about "I am Legend" if you're interested: http://www.cinemaspy.ca/article.php?id=379

okay, now I'm going sled riding with my neighbors.
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Jan. 25th, 2009 @ 06:43 pm a boring sunday afternoon update.
Current Location: McMurray, PA
Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Wagner - Twilight of the Gods
Well, Kira and I have spent most of the weekend ignoring the homework piling up.

Friday night, we spent the evening talking with Eric and a small host of his friends and were provided with an excellent chili!

Today, we finished Roshamon (or however that's spelled), which I liked a lot, and Casablanca, which I also liked.

Now, we're watching Smart People. Thus far, the only decent character in the entire fucking movie is Thomas Hayden Church's poor, crass character, who serves mostly as the screwup, "eventually going to teach you something" half-brother. This said, the rest of the characters (besides the son) are trite and predominantly versions of snooty kids that I've never met, and would never want to. Having spent some time now with english professors, I find movie versions poorly done (except for Wonderboys, but that could be because all the english professors have prob seen it by now, recognized how cool Michael Douglas character is, and assimilated themselves).

It was humorous to me to see the emphasis most of these "smart people" (and i'm talking about the Gilmore girls here as well) in fictional shows put on achieving perfect scores and attending Ivy League schools. Perhaps it's because I'm incapable (either by faculty limitations or laziness) to achieve a perfect score, but I don't find it that entirely important or telling of one's intelligence. Most of the "smart" i've met, many of whom have taught at ivy league (or OXFORD, mind you), have been crass and rather honest, nice people. In fact, i'd say I'm more cantankerous than most of the English faculty members I know. Then again, Harold Bloom's as big a cockbag as they come...but...I only know that from reading him..not from talking to him. He might be a nice guy, I guess. Anyway, my point is, I don't buy Smart People's BS. The only other awful thing they could have done was make him a grammar nazi, because that's the poorman's version of English faculty. I'm still trying to puzzle out why he was teaching the Faire Queen (and it's alternate spellings). I had to listen to some asshole Salon-reader lecture me the other day on how that's a major flaw in the movie....Since it's spelled wrong behind the Lit professor during one of the exams.


News flash: Even though the Victorian's LOVED F.Q. a great deal, that didn't stop Spenser's spelling from fluctuating with Early Modern. Besides, it might have been some idiot pion like me that wrote it, and the professor just happened to come and sit down. Or, perhaps some idiot extra wrote it and no one picked up on it. Who cares! It's such a stupid thing to talk about when the movie sucks for so many other reasons!


This brings me to follow up point: forced relationships. Now, I've been striving to fix my contrived relationship in The Apology of the Sword. In the process, I've been watching how relationships unfold in movies. So far, I've been unimpressed. Both Roshamon and Casablanca have pretty forced relationships, relying mostly on shallow amorous dialogue and annoying scenes highlighting drinking (or, in Ros, melodramatic eye movements). I guess my point is not to criticize these movies but to take heart in the fact I'm working with far less: 1) I have one person's voice and 2) I only have words. What good are words! (quiet hamlet)! Anyway, I took heart in the limitation of even these two decent movies, though I remain unimpressed by most movies love scenes.

I was disheartened to learn that my wife in Fable 2 was slain by a Banshee while I was fighting highwaymen on a road, some hundred or so miles away. Furthering ruining my gaming day, my son was removed from my custody by some civil agency! I felt very much like the rock giant in Neverending story, powerlessly shrugging my titan like shoulders...as my son was, rightly, removed from my power.

But, it made me think of the Hercules story line based on the myth of Orpheus and his wife, where he tears heaven and hell asunder to find his slain friend...only to have his friend die again (if you know the myth or you wikipedia stuff to act like you do, then you know the myth goes a lil' different).

Ugh, now back to work some on my story.
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Jan. 14th, 2009 @ 02:47 pm General update for today.
Current Location: The Office
Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: NONE!!! AAAAAHHHH
Well, I spent the working at the Farm. Despite the CMU lay off, I've been enjoying my brief time back at the farm. I have to be at work longer during the week, but the cut down in paperwork means I get to spend more time working on my WU material, a plus for my students there. Things were rather interesting at the farm today, given I have been improving my mechanic skills by servicing vehicles, working on changing headlights and things, and basically driving things I rarely get to drive (I.E. the cherry picker). Yesterday, I spent almost two hours in the freezing cold trying to get my chainsawing done for the week, but failed after my hand went numb. Today, thankfully, i've been moved back into the shop, where Jerry and I work on vehicles under the head mechanic.

I hate talk radio when I've forced to listen to it, mostly because when they talk about movies. I listen to Quinn and Rose in the Morning today and became annoyed when they were talking about movies, as I always do. I was further irrated when Glenn Beck decided to rant about the nature of 3D movies...what? How do these people actually script the material for their shows? Who wants to hear a bunch of polemic nutholes talk about their views of movies!!!

Jeremy and I wasted about an hr trying to pull start a tractor on a sheet of ice. things were futher complicated by the cold, which seemed to ignore our gloves, and the altnerating wind currents.

Good news: We now have a coffee pot in the shop!
Further good news: The Shop cat, Sidney, is still alive and well, though she pushes her luck by occasionally climbing on the head mechanic's truck.

WU is slow, as it normally is, and I burn up most of my free time by reading The Scarlett Letter and trying to finish my new short story. The ending has been defying me for some time now, continually attempting to spite me. I even took the time today, between dumping used oil in our oil furnace, to try and figure out the ending...it failed...

Anyway, I have to prep to teach on the writing process today.

I should add that i'm working on the 3rd chapter of Dead Space, a new SCI-FI game designed by hackjobs and daft writers. I've also decided that there really needs to be more Class awareness (ala Alien) in modern sci-fi craftsmanship. Why does the mechanic have to run around fighting monsters and fixing the ship while the science officer and commanding officer hide in the fucking cabin? Come on! You got three people, a bootload of bullshit, and aliens!! You think we can take a second and work out some more liberal way of dealing with the problem than: "You, pion, fix my shit"

My dad simply said: "What are the other two (Sci and comm officer) suppose to do? Watch? They don't know what their doing. He's got to fix it."


If I wrote Dead Space, a story (here, wait, this is original) about a derelict ship full of aliens that threaten to overwhelm the ship, I'd rig the fucker to explode.

oh wait..that plots been done (Event Horizon, Alien: resurrection).
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Jan. 11th, 2009 @ 03:27 pm new poem...
Current Location: McMurray, PA
Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: Akon - Over the Edge
Recoil and Recede
J.S. Squires
January 11, 2009

There was a rushing once,
Haloed rain on warming snow,
The roaring crowds celebrates;
Chairless, there’s a choral resound
The cacophony of enjoyment
All forms of pleasures purge
The night bells welcome stars
And enjoyment is held by all…

Gone now that welcomed sound.
Imagined? The memory distant
Uncanny sands cascade down
Once unheard, thundering sounds
Creeping on petty paces…
And fading clouds recede,
Recoil as stung by Stars,
The trickery of the sky,
Wisps of the reaching eye...
Was the pleasure there? Vast,
Could strengthened hands
Hold the ethers folds?
So feeble now…so feeble now.
Was it ever so much
More than a loud sound
Of the bright bells toll…
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Dec. 28th, 2008 @ 11:10 pm new poem...
Current Location: McMurray, PA
Current Mood: aggravated
Current Music: The Offspring: "You're gonna go far kid"
I didn't get a chance to write my yearly christmas poem...so, this is what you get instead.

Tomato Plant
J.S. Squires
Dec. 21, 2008


Abundant, the shadows sag
Beneath the meat, bright red,
As the haloed sun burns away
The rows ‘f yoked leaves,
Crushed under sweat
Bequest ‘f stern lords,
Manacled to dirt,
And pressed to death.
What crucible
Do you bear, plant,
Unnaturally pressing there?
That forced crux given,
Designed by Creator,
With little regards to you!
Dare the soul joy
When sole life labor
Stifles and rules so?
Tell me, Night Shade,
How do you stand now?
With faux ‘splendor’?
When ‘luxury’ ’s a word
Spoken on dry lips
Bought by salted tears
On tearless ducts
Heaving hollow ethos?
Former glory bent
Beneath new shoulder’s
Sway, born burden weighted
On weakened branch,
What is paradise?
Respite betwixt
Unlabored breaths?
Energy is energy
No matter the form,
And labor formed art
Is art, true enough,
With the heaviest cost.

Barbless, you wait
As they come awake.
To enslave
And to take.

Can you hold a world
On your own, young plant,
When gravity and burden
Weigh twice the weight
As your born strength?
Barren? Hardly so!
The pasture is enough
Glory for such a one!
No, for the loins reek
Of pillaged fruit!
They gave the burden
And the task at hand
Without the succor
Or the nurture
To aid or ease
The jobs created you;
The knots that bind
Choke to slow death,
Rubbed raw by rope,
Tightened with toil.
Your gods are cruel,
Envious of base metals
That resist hollow sparkle
And pave roadways
And feed the few
And many alike…

But, let one creator stop…
Then lend me the burden
Of your life’s pursuits,
The fruits of your labor,
That we may both benefit
From the work you’ve done
As we share your weight
To the profit of us both,
That you may grow on
Under a lighten load.
Yoke my strength
And bare me
As I bare you
And we may enjoy,
With helping labor,
Nature’s rote duty.
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Anarchy
Dec. 5th, 2008 @ 08:21 am A poem I had about a dream I had....about a Man I wish I met.
Current Location: McMurray, PA
Current Music: Trans-Siberion Orchestra
Nothing Avatar
J.S. Squires
Dec. 05, 2008


I slept once in a library
Where rubber soles gripped
Knowledge as physical
And paid for spirit
In search of money;
There I hid from sun’s rays
Dreaming of a world of daze:

And I saw a young man
Who perhaps was like me
With sun-burnt skin
And sandaled feet,
With a spear thrust
Ov’r an old man’s back,
A soldier by force
Who stormed Syracuse
And fell by force
To die another day
Slain by his nation
As white whisker soaked
Spilt poison from mouth.
I saw a haunted look
That took his face
And shivered my soul:

“They killed me,”
He swore in breaths
As one might expect
From a drowning fish
Or other wretch
Caught in social snare,
“Cause I begged them
Think past those cuffs
That hold tight flesh
And wore calloused
Ruts in mind’s work
And rusts the soul!

“And because I ask
Their children to learn
What can’t be learned
In paid sophist hands,
To learn and question
For the cost of nothing…
And loved them
As I have loved
And demanded love
From those that speak
And say they love

“and for my friends
And for my enemies
And for those after,
I drank a draught
Of my own death
To be called false,
Uneducated, and poor?”
He was quiet;
I saw he cried.
“I worked broken fingers
As my father’s lineage,
Inherited my lifehood
From grandfather on…
I was poor, I was!
My friends were rich
And begot them nothing…
And begot me death…
And because of poets
That bicker like children,
I found death
A fluid point…
Willing to stop short
And slay an old man
So near death anyway.
Poor,” he echoed
Betwixt fingertips
“Poor by father’s trade
And left to rot in dust
Victim of Democratic
Courts full of sophists,
The enemy of all life!
Poor in cloth
And poor in gold
And slain by souls
That see Gold
As the sole worth.”

A great sorrow fell on him
And I saw a strange passion
From a man that forged
Wisdom a Heaven
And welcomed Knowledge
To self-aware angst:
Know ye knowing
Is but a blinking abyss
Waiting to swallow
One to the nothing
And tomorrow you die
In the reasoned life;
Choose the wood cup;
It’s reason enough,
An end to itself.

And as he faded
Or I faded fr’m him
He smiled slightly
And wandered on
Like Oedipus
Shuffling t’ the void.
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Dec. 2nd, 2008 @ 03:54 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: accomplished
Anyone that draws my name in any raffle thing or is buying me a present: USED BOOKS!!!! You can't go wrong with a used book!!! (they're like 1 dollar!) or 5 dollar DVDs! I just put Stephen King's book under my name because I didn't know how to use the website and was figuring it out.
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Dec. 2nd, 2008 @ 02:43 pm (no subject)
Current Location: McMurray, PA
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: John Williams - Across the Stars
Life is but a Word
J.S. Squires
Dec 2nd, 2008


Shuffling, she puts a foot forward
And walks through bled streets;
The unnoticed grime blends
With the arterial pace;
There’s a beat to the step
That welcomes apathy,
Or convenient empathy
(on a spent holiday whim:
“i’ve free time today;
so I’ll feed the poor!”
from the coffers deep
under the dragon’s ass.)
She warms herself in pace
Like Republican Grace
Strives by individual work:
And, in working for herself,
She sees all the other ones
Push her gently aside
To work for themselves.
The Captialist machine
Churns the grinding gears
To crush all precious coal
To worthless diamond dust,
Draping the rich with glitter
And the base, poor with rust.
She’s walking through death
And they tell her life’s grace
Is bought by a helping hand
And hard work on your own.
Though she owns only cloths
And wants work to do
If there was work to do
And pay in the work,
But there’s no school
And there’s no money
And there’s no work
For those with dirty jeans
And grime-covered sweats
And yellow-teethed smile
Parted over crooked grimace…
But she needs food now
And she needs warmth now
And she needs help now.
Though they tightly hold
When they’ve helped out
On a smooth plam free
To close as quick as open
And hold tight to bills
When times are slow
And more need help.
The masses crash like waves,
Breaking as whales’ breach
And break on levy walls
Built to slay the poor
That loot life from streets
And die like rats in gutters
Beyond the eyes of the keep.
She’s crawling over bodies
To reach a drink of water
‘cause the pipes burst
In the frigid cold
And tastes copper doom
As the pipes explode…

They ignore Death’s walks,
The ginger serenity
That is his touch
A touch of pity.
But to the wealth few
Its at an old, ripe age
That his roaring valley’s
Turn from a paged symbol—
“Only but a metaphor
To be defeated by science!”—
To a more poignant fact.
Find then the abyss is not
So forgiving an enemy,
For though “hell lies in defeat”
The end of days is dogmatic
Like Fenir’s unyielding teeth.

So they sing tales of Divinity
Told on the luxury of opiate
That numbs the tongue
And provides its own heat:
A false glory in haloed crown
That welcomes its own
And slays deviance
In a drowning crowd
(you rule by majority
and you drink luxury)
While their castles burn
Docile fires composed
From the tear-soak wood of
Half-way houses below,
Killing with natural cold
(in Avarice’s warming heat.
cause the fire trucks won’t go
when the police won’t go
and the police won’t
Cause you spread fear
of disease and drugs
but poverty, that ancient demon,
is an inherited disease
and GREED a warming drug.)

Lies whisper on common tongue:
“Things are getting better now.”
She knows the roads are paved
And that money’s taken still
But, for what, she wonders
And watches the ceilings rise
And stays—though shattered—
Oppressively in tact.
She rose her hand for HIM
When he said he’d help
And now she’ll hold HIM
To all those lies told
As divine promises
Forged by words into gold…
But her fingers twitch
In the fire of god’s heat
Waiting not for winter
To burn her to death…
God marches patiently on
As the rest of his sons die
And the daughters pile high
The funeral pyre of bodies
Burning like tire fires
To warm Death’s street:
No image, just reality
Of misperception
As those from above
Ignore those that die.
And those in the castle
Put their hands over ears
To ignore the wallowing tears
Of the young street girls
Wallowing in the streets.

…There’s a moment then
When the paper wrappers blow
And the street kettles sway
As bell’s billow ‘n human hands
Forcing wings’ waver ‘n updrafts
And the quiet of the soul settles.
She sits somewhere slowly
Eating a small bit of food,
Drinking a bit of water,
Breathing a bit of air
Thinking how the clouds speak
And the winter sun cools
The colors of the skyline.
Though the wolves bay,
Their teeth bore like pig sticks
Over the roasting flame
Of vile, stinking breath,
She sighs in personal warmth
For she thinks that time
And personal moments
Don’t always sync this way.
Resting but a second longer
She things the world’s prettiest
In its colored shades of gray
And the artifice of one’s life
Is painted by the human hand
But that ‘life’ was but a word
And existence outside of hand.
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Nov. 29th, 2008 @ 12:50 am a tired day home from Harrisburg
Current Location: McMurray, PA
Current Mood: exhausted
Current Music: Alkaline Trio - While You're Waiting
Well, i'm home from Harrisburg. Kira and I spent from W morning till Friday evening in Harrisburg visiting her dad and his family.

I now get the joy of looking forward to the rest of my break grading papers.

That's about it.

Next week is our final week of class, thank god.
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Nov. 25th, 2008 @ 11:43 pm (no subject)
Current Location: McMurray, PA
Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: Jeff Buckley - Hallelujah
As Lovers Dare Do/
“On their Last End”
J.S. Squires
Nov. 25, 2008


Can you believe we’re alive?
That, after this heart cracked?
The heaven’s dire shimmer
And Burnt stars still shine
Like shivs part flesh
Or flesh parts flesh
Or words slide past
The best defense…
Can you breathe to?
Have I spared your life
As you’ve spared mine?
For we’ve fought, and yelled,
And swore ‘n Satan’s skull
We’d kill and slay alike
And take each other’s life...
Can you still say love
As love once meant
What it once meant
That you loved me?

Ask again the same question.
I had a young friend,
Now gone ever more,
Who swore on parted lips
He love’ once ‘n no more…
Now gone, like momentous
Grasp at the fiery flight,
Flaring flake in moonlight
Fallen in Nimbi’s quake…
Hand out to hell’s breath
To catch a cold taste
And, as love expiates,
Burst at the heart…

It’s raining snow now,
Outside warm window,
As Mortals see Eternal,
The faux natural world…
We live on salient daggers
As dangerous as emotions
Starved by lukewarm hands
And tasting of sweat
Pushed from fearful lips…
Oh sullen stars disquiet,
How young fools die
With hands on hearts
And tears in eyes
To swear they love
In a moment’s fury
For all eternity…
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Nov. 25th, 2008 @ 11:23 pm A frigid two days before thanksgiving.
Current Location: McMurray, PA
Current Mood: melancholy
Current Music: Queen - The Show Must Go On
I hate thanksgiving. I really do. My hate for it is only surpassed by my hate for New Years. Right now, I'm sitting in the continuation of my fevered anger. Somehow, I've managed to continue my foul mood from the time i left SC till now. I don't see it as improving.

Things I have accomplished today:

Configured, updated, and synced my new phone to my laptop
Graded and responded to 10 papers
Updated my classes Blackboard site
Went to the store with Kira
completely trashed my office.
Killed a shit load of zombies.

Yes, my unproductive and self-pitied existence continues slowly on. I'm hoping the change in scenery (and perhaps a lot of alcohol) will improve my disposition.

I started a long poem that even I couldn't puzzle out; so, I left it unfinished. Maybe when I return I'll wade into trying to figure it out. My story The Apology of the Sword has been slowly dragging itself along. Any loathing I've pent up for the asshole creative writers and hack prose writers has been seething into my latest story. With every slow syllable I forge, I feel the sheer disgust with petty tools and their trite prose whelming through me, adding into the cabin fever and the cascading stacks of student papers; I feel mesmerized by my own self-absorption, the tedious slow drowning in my infernal eroticism and antipathy. Oh well. Emerson is always at hand to lead me gently into my sublimity. He always has a way of calming me and forcing me to look past any pretensions I might hold towards my career or profession. After all, like a weekend painter, it merely takes a brush of pen stroke to go from day to night...but to step into the transcendent eye is a lonesome credos reserved for the suicidal.
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Nov. 24th, 2008 @ 10:55 am New Poem: A Empathetic Response
Current Location: CMU Lib.
Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Edwin Starr - War
Here's a lil' wordsworth style responding.

An empathetic response
To one angry poet
Who conflates one for self
And aid for ego:
J.S. Squires
Nov. 24, 2008


Ah, hollow fury angry poet,
The syntactical sound
Of your cliche rage roaring,
The hackney slope
Of your trite poesy!
All for one silent thought:
“Stand for another I cannot!”
The bird-pecked references,
The haloed reverence,
All for what, revenge?
Silent thought, petty poet,
For such a moral man?
As moral as a fig,
And active as a slug,
To rage and wage war
For what? Your own pride?
While lecturing another
To lose theirs?
Noted, hypocrite.

There lies Delphi, fool,
In the social institutes!
Burn, as you said you would,
Slay, as you said you would,
For I’ve shown the way…
No? follow the legal codes
And accept, here you go,
Your own complacency.
You know the way lies bloody
Paved over the farmer’s wives
And the young girl now mother
Waiting and spreading horror
With the fork of a sated tongue…
And why do you wait
And type a poem of hate?
Best to lie to oneself
And see one’s self good
Then to acknowledge
One’s acceptance!
The way lays unpaved
To the righteous
Willing to pave the way.

Quiet now? Like a cauldron
Boiled over to simmer down
And what’s come of it?
All the rage and angst
Projected on another?
Perceptive blindness
Forged reality of air
And slain while embraced
The lack of justice
In one’s own stance.
Nowhere, we’re here
We’re we’ve always been.

Progress is relative,
And we’ve more to do
More rights to wrong!
Actualize your place:
Privilege to type and wait
On a laptop open
And coffee brewed,
To eat and enjoy
In a silent place,
To afford gaming
Instead of workin…
Where do you stand
With luxury for hate?
So much wind wasted
On another…best to do
Like you said
Not to insult
Like you did.

Here I stand
Where I am
And there I go
To fix the road.
Come along;
Or stand alone
On high shelf
For yourself.

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Anarchy
Nov. 24th, 2008 @ 09:13 am (no subject)
Current Location: McMurray, PA
Current Mood: angry
Current Music: The Offspring - A Lot Like Me
On Certain Activists:
An angry response to
Misguide pretensions
And egoticism.
J.S. Squires
Nov. 19, 2008


How do you swallow
The swollen bile
Of your Pride
When those you help
Are your shadowed self?
To ask, to speak, to swear
With a human tongue
The Idyllic pyre
Built on imaged foes:
The Hydra, the Iron Bird,
The Cask of Hemlock,
The trite sins of Augustine,
The martyred-stripes of slavery
Worn under Oxford stripes
All in faux luxury,
The welcomed doom
Of machined steps
Walked o’er airy gears
Railed against
And embraced.

I’ve seen you before
In the pulpit’s flame;
Beating the sinners
In your nine-tailed angst,
Weeping self-pitied tears
For their penitence!
That Bugbears were real,
Bowled by sword ‘n shield,
I’d come too; I’d kill too;
I’d burn Delphi to spare
The fools caught in prayer,
But no Hubris will stave—
Not even yours
Which you pile
Beneath their feet
As Heaven Come—
The Sword from hands
Of the willing blind
Nor save the world
Under your name.

Brave civil soldier
Toppling feeble body
Of the quiet voters
And that poor trash
That birthed you too
Yet fearful ‘f Academics
That speak with same
Compliancy, same hate,
Same misguide steps?
Brave Civil Soldier
Think on one’s words
‘n intended targets
For they are you too,
As blind and hating
As your haloed words
On hollow winds ‘scape;
I heard them clear
When you, slouching,
Spoke with pretense
Of lecturing one
To praise yourself.

Perhaps I can help:
A question posed
Hurts like daggers
To aiding others,
Is but an insult
To the cause
Not to yourself;
Serve for Action
Not for Medals,
Not for gain.

I grow tired of lectures,
The sound and fury,
Of the proactive few
That pale at great battles
To wage moot wars
Against the moot few.
Do you feel brave now
When you pale in class
And assure your friends
You’ve done good today
By beating on one,
Cowering fr’m another?
When, in armor self-tailored,
You wage ware on farmers
And young girl’s mothers,
Just to nod and agree
To the elitist peers
You hold to, you suckle
And hold tight conviction
Spoke on hollow prayer?
So brave, so worthwhile,
In tiny academic bubble,
In the small pond you troll
Picking small fish apart
To build your castle tops.
Quiet, little lord,
We’ve all enough your
Tired hot air.
Save it for the market
And your fashioned cross.
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Anarchy
Nov. 16th, 2008 @ 11:11 am New Short Story: "'The Cliff's Old Ribs:' Conversations with Dionysus
Current Location: McMurray, PA
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: The Decemberists - The Island:/Come And See/The Landlord's Daughter/You'll Not Feel The Drowning
OKay, so, facebook hates geocities. I had to link to my livejournal just to link to my website. Anyway, as shady as it sounds, enjoy. I also put a link to my short story (draft) online collection.

"The Cliff's Old Ribs"

and

Other Stories

Enjoy
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Nov. 11th, 2008 @ 09:49 am new poem..
Current Location: McMurray, PA
Current Mood: listless
Current Music: She Wants Revenge - Replacement
Christ, i've been struggling to finish my short story...and write a poem worth a damn. of the dozen I've written this week, i've got two of any worth...

The Vase Plummet
J.S. Squires
Nov. 11, 2008


She sees raindrops like teardrops
And swears by the songs heard
That life is as sullenly lonely
As the night she spends alone.
She brings the chorus back
With a sweep of dampen hair,
Tonight, she sings quietly along,
Means more than it ever did,
And she, the centered tragedy,
Sleeps in the limelight tan,
Burning for a simple thought
A feeling of remorse unfelt
Lying face down in grime;
The stars conjoin the chorus
To the ancient dreams of ole
With their honoring the dead
And their morbid fatalism:
“Bring me along,” she says now,
“Brings me along to Hell.
Let me taste Pompeii’s fire,
Nocturnal burning eternal”
And weeps bitter raindrops
To extinguish the flames
For a persevered wrong,
A perverse life inversed
For the moon set on sunset
And the star set the night,
Birthed by bitter souls
Solely focused on themselves.
The hurts tally like stocks
Dropping as dew drops
As careless feet walk anon!
So many things need fixed!
So many ideal pedestals
Shimmer in the ground’s quake
As the vases of luxury crack
And plummet to the ground,
She fells timidly down….

As she quietly fell to sleep,
The beautiful neighbor slept
And the nice cars lay quiet
After individual disquiet.
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Anarchy

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